It's Normal for Grief To Stay With Us For A Lifetime
When we are drawn into the brotherhood or sisterhood of loss, tenderness seems to be our natural state. We are so vulnerable. Everything brushes against the raw wound of our grief, reminding us of what we have lost...Martha Whitmore Hickman
It’s interesting that often when
we are feeling low and need something to lift our spirits, how it comes to us. Such was the case with an article I read recently online about
grief. Last Friday morning there it was in my news feed on Facebook, and as I read it felt like a balm to the wounds in my heart.
No matter how hard we all
try to be strong and resilient in the face of adversity, the truth is we are so
fragile. We are such fragile beings of blood and bone, skin and sinew, muscle
and memories, wrapped in our earthly forms, our hearts mottled with emotions
and the yearning to understand the great mystery of Life.
All the days of our
lives here on Earth we work and struggle to live and make a living. With our
family and friends around us, we go through day after day living, laughing,
loving and wrestling with the great mystery of why we are here, and where we go
when we die.
Then, sometimes
unexpectedly, a loved one dies, and we find ourselves racked with such
unimaginable sorrow and unspeakable grief that nothing about our lives makes
sense anymore. We lose track of hours, days, and sometimes even weeks as we
stumble along trying to understand the pain of the intolerable heartache that
has befallen us.
It seems to me that
lately my family and I have been confronted with this question far too often.
In the past two years, I've struggled, sometimes daily, to understand why.
So,
seeing this article was exactly what I needed at the moment. Written by Ashley Bush, a
psychotherapist, it first caught my eye because of its title: “Grief
Has No Closure (Fortunately)”.
But wait, haven’t we always been told there is and should be closure? It might take time, but
closure will come eventually, is what we were told for decades. Not so, says Ms. Bush,
closure may not ever come to us fully, and that's okay, as long as we come to terms with our grief.
What she said next about grief made the most sense of all: “And it doesn’t just hurt for a few days, a few weeks, a
few months, or even a few years. The impact of a major loss is lifelong.
Emotional “closure” is a cultural myth.”
Finally, someone who isn’t
afraid to speak the truth about how grief works and the acknowledgement that it's healthy and normal to feel the loss forever. After all, this is real life
we’re talking about here, where things get messy and complicated
and painful at times. It’s not the make-believe world of a television sitcom
where everything is neatly wrapped up and tied with a bow within a thirty-minute
time frame.
For me
personally, losing four family members and one very dear friend to death in just
a little over two years left me feeling vulnerable and raw, the wound of
grief never quite healing before another loss comes.
My heart feels weary
and scabbed with the losses. My body feels tired- physically, mentally, and
emotionally. I've often fluctuated between tears and anger and between denial and acceptance, all the while questioning the meaning of it all.
Reading that all of my
emotions were perfectly normal and that it may never be the same for me was
reassuring. Suddenly, I felt more equipped to handle my losses than I have
since it all began. I am relieved to hear that I am not
expected “to get over it”, as was suggested to me by someone last year. This
woman, a therapist, suggested that I not express the sadness that I felt as my
nephew’s 16th birthday neared. I was shocked and angry that she
would say this. How could I not be saddened knowing that this would have been
the birthday he would have gotten his pick-up truck, that important ritual of passage for
a young man.
What this author suggest, however,
is not that we forget our grief, but rather that we eventually transcend our
loss in such a way that brings more meaning and purpose to our lives. To me,
that makes far more sense, the notion that we would find through our grief a way to better
understand Life and our place in it.
She suggests we consider
three things to help us as we navigate the grief that surrounds us:
1.
Loss is lifelong-it is
with us always, but we can learn to accept it as time passes. It’s with this
gradual acceptance of loss that we are able to move on with our lives.
2.
Love is eternal- the love
we have for those who have passed is ongoing and will always be a part of our
lives. It is part of who we are and talking about them and remembering the good
times we shared acknowledges the important place they hold in our lives.
3.
You are changed- Make no mistake,
you and the rest of the family left behind will never be the same. How can
any of you be the same with the missing person you all loved no longer part of you lives? Yet
this change is inevitable and part of moving forward. As Ms. Bush says: “As you
let yourself be changed, you will find that growth is possible.”
More than anything, I think it’s important to remember that our
loved ones would not want us to become so mired in grief that we cannot move
forward in our lives. We honor their memories by loving and remembering them,
but also by moving forward with our own lives.
Rose S. Williams©2012
Southernstoryteller
